Forgiveness

Forgiveness is such a hard word, it must be one of the things we all struggle with the most. Forgiving ourseleves and the people who hurt us in our lives. People who hurt us so, that it changed the trajectory of our life.

Though in Mark 11:25 it says,

“And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.” and a more beautiful one says, Psalm 86:5

“You, Lord, are forgiving and good, abounding in love to all who call to you.”

Releasing

Depending on the circumstances that we grew up in, I think a lot of us have anger or resentment towards our parents, or even siblings or grandparents.

Most of my forgiveness is towards my dad, unkonwingly he turned me and I think my siblings away from God. Which is sad, because he wanted to be a pastor. But instead of teaching us the love of God, he would force it down our throat and use it in arguments to make his point.

I still remember, when I was very young someoene must have read the bible to me or talked to me. it was something along the lines of, God loves you like your father. And in that moment I was like, my dad? Who is always figting with my mom, who forces everything on us... him? And it broke my trust.

Sometimes I am so conflicted. Was it him or was he being influenced by evil spirits. Lucifer is cunning. He only needs to deceive one... to turn other generations away from God. And through my dad's actions. All of his children turned away from God, wasnt strong in their faith and even turned to new age.

So here I am, working on my forgiveness. It's not easy, because as humans we also try to understand people's actions. we want to know why. But in grace we have to pray for the strength and the courage to let it go, forgive and give it to God to heal and take it away from us.

Lady, at peace on Mountain

With our walk with God, he also let's us know it's okay. I forgive you, forgive yourself and the people that have hurt you. Carrying that anger and hurt around is not healthy for you my love.

Bless your heart and if you want to reach out and talk, please shoot me a mail.