Fertility and God

Baby clothes

Fertility is a blessing from God,babies are a gift from God.

BAInfertility is the word that stabs every woman in the gut…

What is wrong with me, why me, why do they have 2,5 or 10, and I can't even have one…

And the worst one for me is, why do they abort their baby when it's a gift from God and I could have adopted the little one.

Stop, Breathe. 

God binds and unbinds wombs.

Sarah, the mother of nations was barren… She had Isaac at 90. Even she was thinking I am past the age of getting babies and laughed… (Genesis 18:12)

Abram's son, Isaac,the one who should begin the promise from God, I will make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and will give them all these lands, and through your offspring all nations on earth will be blessed (Genesis 26:4) 

He married Rebekah at 40 and yet she was unable to have children, he intercedes for her with God through prayer. She became pregnant and gave birth when Isaac was 60. For twenty years they prayed and trusted God. (Genesis 25:21) Twenty years… Let that sink in. 

Woman gettin ulrasound

So you might be wondering why am I writing this, myself and my husband have been trying for two years now. It has had many ups and downs, tears and anger.

But in the middle of this journey… I got saved by Jesus. Praise the Lord.

Found a beautiful community in Makeni and got Baptized.

You might be asking… why is this relevant? Because as difficult as it still might be. In my journey with God, I have learned there is peace in Praying and trusting in him. I don't have the same reactions when I hear someone else is pregnant, yes I still do have a cry, because it’s normal to be emotional. But I have learned to turn to God and talk to him, wrestle it out with him. Praise him. And it's as if peace comes over me even trought the tears, because I trust him for answered prayers or to make peace with it.

What I also have learned in my journey with God, is it's not a formula of I do this and he does that. Its God can do the impossible, there is no formula. Trust God and he can do the impossible. There is no place for logic, even though we want to understand everything.

I have also made peace…let me rather say, trying to make peace, that if it does not happen it's not part of my story with God and myself and my husband have discussed adoption. As we are all orphans that are family through Christ. So why can't an orphan be the perfect child?

And to be honest, losing both my parents in my ‘30’s was a hard pill to swallow, realising I am an orphan and I have no “parental” safety net. Can you imagine how Orphans feel…

I trust that one day I will rewrite this blog entry because God has blessed us. With our own or an adopted child

Family walking on Beach